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stoned fruit
i first started smoking weed when i turned 27. it took a lot of attempts to get me high – 7 in fact. what did it was a sativa pill.
or should i say 2 cause i popped the second sooner than i should’ve – of course. i could feel my eyes start to roll around so i pulled out my phone and recorded myself for the next 12 minutes.
i was high for 17 hours.
i woke up and had to go to work and a movie after high af. it was an intense experience but it opened me up to self regulate and figure out what i like and how much.
part of my morning ritual is rolling a joint while my kettle boils. sometimes i read articles while i smoke but i’ve been enjoying deep breathing exercises while i meditate.
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150 mixtapes
mxtps started as a place for me to throw old limewire and kazaa files i still had with stuff i ripped from myspace, musicmatch jukebox, yahoo music performances the media content from enhanced cds as well as the exclusive remixes you could only get from $11 imported singles that only had three tracks on it. as well as songs found on music blogs and the golden era of soundcloud and hypem, it became the digital continuation of my lifelong obsession with mixing cds and an almost compulsion with knowing what song is going to play next and if it was going to flow.it’s a love letter to CD-R and CD-RW, mini discs with 250 songs that got me through my walks to school and water polo practice, custom recorded cassettes, MP3 players, the 20 gb ipod with the click wheel that i saved up for, my Zune that i obsessed over junior year, and my lime green sony discman that got me through football away games. it’s what i loved about burned cds borrowed from friends and custom covers and handwritten tracklists passed between classes in paper envelopes stapled together in the back of a textbook.its been a way for me to track the changes in my taste in music across platforms and different mediums since 2010. it’s been the soundtrack for my workouts, roadtrips, fucks, and hangouts.thank you to anyone who’s ever listened, i appreciate it more than you know.
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- back in that ‘09 coffee shop writing flow
- sitting outside waiting for my weed delivery person to show up has been my weekly appearance outside. weed, walks, and groceries
- i’m really proud of the art i’m working on and happy i have that to escape to and keep me motivated. taking risks and not second guessing myself and just going with it has been much needed right now
- niggas are enlightening
- love that i’ve built up a rapport with a camera shop within walking distance
- i may destroy you continues to be the best writing i’ve seen in awhile
- ready when you are
- rage as a reminder
- being high on a trail when you see a snake
- when you pound your hands on their ass cheeks while you’re digging your face further taking your frustrations out on their hole and then wrap your arms around their waist and pull them onto your tongue deeper
- grateful for the ocean air after 9pm
- grateful for shelter and remote work
- damn, i want waffles
