i do consider it a redirection
and i’m grateful for such honesty
it made me question myself again
to clarify my stance
to reaffirm my position and retract my talons
a rarity i’m courting
as i alchemize venom
and deep breath into another rhythm
once again i straightened out a beginning i wasn’t aware was a path
you can be significant and still be a tense that’s past
as i sit in silence and sew in stronger wings
i’m reminded of your glances and unspoken things
of how i can swim through discomfort while deciphering
and then look you in the eye and not feel a thing
pulling me towards you i just tilt my head
as if my axis were more accurate instead
this learning to unlearn what i thought matters
involves closing books and removing marks from chapters
from what i’ve gathered reading your lips in my bed
is that you speak your sentences circled in red
while i feel like cursive held in contempt
your responses reignite my attempt
to make me wonder if i mean it
if i ever meant it
if it was of means
to question this desire and navigate its origin
was it deep down or just under my skin
similar impurities this isn’t just on him
who wasn’t pacing themselves when they decided to swim
who didnt take a deep breath before they descend
questions to the audience if you dont mind informing him
constant obsession with your questions
are you the teacher, am i the lesson
am i participating or reframing the session
is this betta fish attacking his reflection
how dare you and yet you did
before to them and now again
pattern recognition while im in
say it slowly it might sink in